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#poetry LET ME LIVE

I sit down on my bed

Tired, exhausted, burnt

It was a busy day in here, my head.

I do nothing, all day, all night

Nothing at dawn, nothing at twilight

Just sit back, pondering

Lie down endlessly thinking

Why am i only floating?

In the slow, grey river of my life

Stagnant, still, lifeless

I only drift by, purposelessly.

If only I were a brook, zealous

I’d be gushing with excitement, over pebbles

Not stressing over my troubles.

If only I were full of life

I’d be lighting bulbs of ideas

I’d be weaving a dream

I’d be travelling a new path.

If only I knew

What I wanted to be

Where I wanted to go

My eyes would sparkle, glint

Not be dull, aching, too heavy to blink

With the burden of seeing myself

Waste this life away, this precious time away.

I would feel alive, I would feel my lungs breathe

I would feel my lips smile, I would giggle

I would make a difference to the world

Plant a few trees, feed a few animals

Ooze love, kindness, my own kind of sunshine.

If only I could,

If only I could.

What stops me I wonder, I ponder even more

In my already busy, trafficked head

From breaking my own inhibitions 

From getting out the door, out into the world.

What is this aggression, frustration

Pointless irritation, agitation?

Is this depression? That dreaded monster!

Is it? I need to get away from it

But I feel ashamed, trying to run away,

From that monster, for I need courage to fight it

Courage to face it, my fear, my grief

It is a battle I must fight alone, I know

Because it would, and it could help me

Cast me away from shadows, towards light

I need some strength, some valour

Some care, some love, some help from you

You need to be patient, I will survive

You need to hold my hand,

And then let it go, as I fly, free and high

Because I’m sure I will, someday, soon.

For I’ve heard

A fearless dream and a little hope is all you need

To live this beautiful journey called life.

#poetry AN EVENING SNACK

A slice of white bread

Half a teaspoon of butter spread

Four dried tomato slices

Three shrivelled cucumber slices

A dab of green chutney 

Made of coriander and mint

Topped with a  slice of white bread

And very, very few cheese shreds

Now that’s a sandwich

That never made anybody drool

Knowing this

I walk at a slow pace, reluctant

Collect my food

From that dirty little counter

How in the world could this blunder

Ever satiate my humongous hunger?

I squeeze some pungent ketchup

Onto my plate 

A poor compensation for

My evening snack’s bland taste

After gobbling it down grudgingly

I left the place hastily

Laying on my bed that night

I dreamt of pizzas and mozzarella

Burgers and fries

Only to wake up and still wonder

Can anything cooked here

By that master chef

Ever satisfy my poor hunger?

#poetry Haiku #2

” I foolishly dreamt

Of stars lighting up our paths

Not headlights, not lamps “

I clicked this picture on my way back home one night. It was a pretty sight to the eyes, really.

But I couldn’t help thinking, how wonderful it would be if it were stars lighting up the dark nights and our roads, our paths, and not bulbs, lamps or headlights. Also, that we often forget how extraordinary nature could be and get caught up in our hectic schedules and routines.

So take a moment, take a break, switch some lights off, go for a walk, look around you, and above too. 

What you find may change your outlook towards life, or realistically speaking, may give you a new idea, or even bring back memories, or just simply make you smile. And we know how tough that is with all our first world problems, pfft.

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#poetry Haiku #1

” I open my eyes

The ball of fire rises

Rays peeking at me “


I clicked this picture just as I woke up, one morning. It was a delight to find these sun rays passing through my curtains, their light on the walls, forming patterns of light and shadow like those prints on the curtains.

I knew I had to capture this right away. For some unknown reason, the rays seemed innocent and playful, like a child. Needless to say, that was definitely a less grumpy and a more hopeful, cheerful morning!

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#poetry You

Like a mother, to a child

Like breeze, to a fire

Like water, to a seed

You blow life into my every breath.

Just

As the mighty star, to the rocks

You are the Sun of my dawning life.

You soothe my wounds

Heal, some rather deep, scarred

You sense my weaknesses

You strengthen my strengths.

Just

As an angel sent from the heavens

You grace my life with your shine.

I nevertheless wonder wildly, if you are

A kind angel, or Him

For I see Him in you, and

You in Him.

Just

Like a lost child finds his father

I cry tears of joy

For I found you, and you found me, my life.

Graciously, you bestow love upon me

With a glint in your beautiful eyes

You so often tease me, tantalizingly

And flash that huge satisfied grin!

Just

How could I ignore that smile,

It blows life into me.

That face, full of innocence

Of intelligence, wit

Of mischief, pride

Of empathy and love

Calls to me, and how!

Just

As those brown eyes turn hazel in the Sun

Your gaze, captivating, pure 

Melts my heart, gives me life.

You make me radiate life, as

I feel you around me-

That touch, your cool breath on my face

Your warm hand in mine, and

Your strong arms embracing me.

Just how!

How should I not miss your surreal presence that adds rainbows to my grey sky?

Now I know, it is this

That frightens me

Making me ask you a thousand times

In my mind, however,

Will you bring a storm, light up my life and then bid farewell?

Or will you be there, patiently waiting for me to bloom, and then walk beside me,

Always?

Just

Who hath seen the future, they say

I say lets make one,

Me and my life, my love, you

For as long as

Our own little forever.

#poetry FEMALE INFANTICIDE

Female Infanticide? It’s murder

She leapt in my arms 
Eyes gleaming with amazement 
I knew she couldn’t see the world, yet 
She felt me, she heard me, took in the fragrance of flowers 
And she yearned to learn more 
Such a beautiful blessing, a boon! 
My daughter is, I thought 
My eyes welling up with drops of love 
It was immense happiness I felt, I couldn’t contain 
Joy so bright, my angel seemed to shine in light 
And then I realised, it was the sun 
Scorning over me, bringing memories of yesterday’s sin 
A sin, or a murder? Of my unborn daughter 
That I had committed loyally fulfilling my duties 
Duties that destroyed me, my existance 
Never a day passes by, as I regret 
Dwelling and breathing in a house full of demons 
Demons who shall adorn themselves in saffron and garlands, 
Yet take an innocent life within me? 
And I laugh bitterly, the beautiful face of my daughter before me 
Thinking, one day there shall be no woman 
To care, to pour kindness 
To shed tears…and to give life 
Will they realise then, how cruel and inhuman they were? 
But there would be no one to forgive them 
They shall face wrath in the Underworld 
While my daughter, my child awaits me in the blissful Heaven…

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